Recalling the day....
It was almost seven years ago to the day, we had a similar snow storm and my newborn son Joseph Nicholas was in the NICU at Greenville Memorial Hospital, while I sat at home 10 miles away. 10 miles, it might as well been a million miles away.
It didn't matter to me... it was 10am in the morning and the only thing on my mind was to get to the NICU, ASAP!!! For heaven's sake, I remember thinking that I live in South Carolina, I should not have to deal with this on top of everything else. Come on now... a snow storm, oh please, it was just a few flakes of snow and a little bit of ice, but I'm from the NorthEast, so to me, this was no big deal! I was panicking and pacing as my mother, in her usual calm and collective way was reassuring me, that we will get there, it just may take us a little longer. Thankfully, my Stepdad, Skip was here and getting the car ready to get me to the NICU. He was cleaning off the driveway and the car. Actually, I think he was probably just trying to stay outside, away from me... the crazy woman, the new mother that had to get to the NICU immediately because my son needed me! Looking back now, I just laugh.
HE DIDN'T NEED ME...I NEEDED HIM! I needed to see him, watch him take every breath, make sure he was still there, I needed to make sure that he heard my voice, felt my touch. My newborn was sleeping peacefully, not a care in the world, he was just fine, being cared for by the best nurses and doctors, probably dreaming of angels...just as it should be.
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